I'VE FINISHEDDDDD HIGHSCHOOOLL!!!! YAYAYAYYAYAYAY!

now i need a job and to drive, and to go to college

Maybe your mother never told ya
Maybe your fathers to kind
Well I'm going to tell you baby
I think you're just a waste of time

location: mi casa mood: upset music: tv

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So lately ive been thinking about death, not like suicide or anything, just about people and how they die, and what happens after death. I'm a little freaked out about the whole thing. I feel like im gonna die soon or something because at night thats all that i really think about. i have no idea why. But it just seems to come into my mind every single night for the past 2 weeks. Sometimes it makes me so upset i'll cry. But anyways the only thing that really freaks me out is what happens after death not so much as death itself. I mostly also dont wanna go to hell. Honestly what is death, it is  like complete darkness like your sleeping or what!?!?! This makes me upset and angry that you die and not know anything about the after life. I mean there are like books that say youll go to heaven or hell. Than there are things that say theres no such thing as hell and that everyone that dies creates there own heaven. Yes there is the bible, but sometimes i find it hard to believe, which as i was little growing up i was told i should never say anything like that because its like your denying god or something. This really makes me Mad, you dont even know. 

But i dont know what else to say, so yah. anyone else freaked out?

location: My room mood: ahhh. music: Joan jett